This afternoon, I had my 'O' Biology practical. I must admit, it was an easy paper and yet i flunk it! Nobody should be blame except me. It was purely due to my carelessness and I was over-confident. I think out of the 40 marks, I had already lost minimum 10 marks. Think that will lower my chance of getting an A1 for my Biology. However, I still stand a chance of getting an A1 for my Biology. That is only by reducing my confidence in this few days, study real hard for my Biology theory paper and read the questions carefully during Biology theory exams. Now I must really work hard for my Biology, and of course not to forget the other subject too.

Glad to know he will find his happiness in no time. Wish that everything will go smooth and they would finally be brought together by faith and their own effort! Knowing that she a nice girl, I have no regrets or saddness, but only happiness. Hope that they would be bless in near future and forever. Then mayb I'll have one more daddy and one more mommy!

This morning was bad for me. My friend and I had a quarrel. I not sure if I can use the word "misunderstanding" as the main cause for start of the quarrel. But I am sure that I was partially at fault. I regretted 'forcing' him to take that photo and put it on the slide show that will be flash on graduation day. But I really did not have the thought of humiliating him. Though after that incident we did talked in a peaceful manner, but I know that there a barrel between us now. I hope that our friendship would not be so vulnerable that it would be destoryed by this quarrel and me. Pray and wish that time would heal the scar that I had carved on his and my hearts.

P.S If you (him) are reading this entry, I just want to say 'sorry'.

I had finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows recently. It is a nice book, but the ending is not as good as I had expected.After finished the whole Harry Potter series, the characters that I like are Lupin, Snap and Sirius Black.

Lupin, the most selfless and thoughtful werewolf.

Snap, the most loyal Dumbledore's Army. Despite having the choice of choosing a smoother and easier path, he chose the difficult path. This is because of his love for Harry's mother, Lily.

Sirius Black, the most courageous person. Despite the fact that his family were all on the dark side, he still continued to help Dumbledore and Harry. The courage and resilliance shown by him is not easily find in other people.

However, Lupin, Snap and Sirius Black had died when helping Harry Potter to fight Tom Riddle, Voldermort. Althought they had died, but I am sure they will be remembered by people who love them.

Today morning, I received back my English class test. As usual, I failed it again. I'm not sure how am I going to make it for my English prelim.

I had also found out that alots of my friends had started for their prelim / 'O' Level revision. I am alots behind them. If I want to catch up with them, I really need to do double my pace. Hope I can do it, so that I would not have regret when I receive my "O" Level results next year.

After thinking for a few days, I think I will really miss my school, my class, my friends and my classmates. The graduation day is on 10th October, but I still not sure what I will do for my class then.

Next Friday is Teachers' Day not sure what our class will be doin for the teachers during the class party. Hope that everything will be fine then.

Recently, I also had a quarrel with one of my friends. I think that both are at fault. We had apologized to one another but, ever since then, we had not speak to one another till now. I am not sure if I really have the mood to speak to him, scare that it will only make things worse.

My 'O' Level Chinese result

I had received my 'O' Level Chinese result the day before yesterday. Thanks to Him and Mrs Ngoh, I received an A1. I happy with the result as this may allow me to go to Tai Wan at the end of the year.

"O" Level English Oral

I will be having "O" Level English Oral tomorrow. I am quite scare. Because I have lots of difficulties in reading passages. I hope that I will do my best tomorrow and be able to control my fear, rather than being control by it.

I will also be receiving my "O" Level Mother Tongue result tomorrow. I hope that I will get the mark that I deserve. Hope so. Pray to Him.

Sorry and Thanks for Everything

This evening my friends and I celebrated Ling Ling's birthday.

We started off with BBQ. We had a difficult time in setting out the fire and cooking all the food. We had set out the fire for more than 5 times and lots of food was not fully cooked. After BBQ for a long time, we sang a birthday song for Ling Ling before the cakes was cut. After which we clean up the place and went home.

Now sitting infront of the computer, reflecting about today events, I felt kind of bad and a little inferior complex. Comparing myself to the others, I feel that I did not help out much before, during and after the BBQ. I not sure was this because that it was time for me to bed, or was it just simply because of my laziness. I feel bad being like a selfish person, so I think I need to start to improve in this area from today onwards.

This afternoon and evening, unlucky things kept on happen to me. This had slightly made me upset. Hope I will be all right physically, mentally and spiritually by tomorrow.

Lastly, I would like to thanks Ling Ling, her family and friends for organising this BBQ. I would also like to thanks Sam and his parents for taking their time and efforts to season the chicken wings, meats and fish. We have all the food all thanks to all of them. I hope that Ling Ling did enjoyed it herself, and hope she will have good years ahead.

Ling Ling's BBQ Birthday Party

This afternoon after my Chemistry practical mock examination, my friends and I went to purchase items for Ling Ling's BBQ birthday party, which will be held tomorrow at the BBQ pit near her block.

We had our shopping without much difficulties. However, think we will like to thanks Sam for his initiative to season the chicken and string ray.

In around 3 hours 30 mins time, Ling Ling will turn 19. I hope that she will enjoy her special day.

Thanks friends

This post is specially for my friends.

This morning I received the wallet that I had chose as my birthday present. Must thanks the 40 friends who had each share their money for my new wallet, especially those who had spent time choosing and wrapping my wallet. Of couse, not to forget, I must also thanks those who had send me gifts, messages, blessings, wishes and sang birthday song for me. Thanks a lot.

I would also like to thanks my mother, brother and sister for giving me Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows as my birthday gift. Thanks

I hope that I will be less childish from today onwards. Sorry for the childishness in the past. I will also try my best not to act cute and be less noisy.

What do I want?

My birthday is only 3 days away and I still don't know what I really want for my birthday.

My friends had asked me what I will like to have for my brithday since monday, but I still don't really know what is the thing I want the most. There some ideas that had flesh over my mind though.

These ideas are:
1) Burger King (1 meal)
2) Customised key chain
3) Music book (J. S. Bach)
4) Wallet (Jeans+ / Billablong)
5) CD album (By Backstreet boys / 王力宏)
6) Donuts (From the store at CWP, Cold Storage)
7) Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (By JK Rowling)

Now I am trying to figure out which one do I want the most among these items. This is a tough job, it makes me heache for six days. Let analyse each item now.

1) Burger King
This is something that I long to eat for week. However, it is something that I eat and will be digested then. So it won't have much meaning to it. This is something that I can get it myself as and when I like.

2) Customised Key Chain
This is a good idea as it can be use or keep as a memory. So may consider this idea.

3) Music book (J. S. Bach)
This is something that I may like. However I am not sure if I would use it if I have it. It will be a waste if I don't. So this idea is only good if I sure that I will use it.

4) Wallet
It something that quite expensive and I can do with or without it. So this may not be the first choice if I could find something better than this.

5) CD album
This is something that I can do with or without it. So this may not be the first choice too.

6) Donuts
This is something nice and tasty. However it has not much meaning as it will be digested after I ate it, and I can get it easily if I want to.

7) Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows
This is something I really like. But it too expensive and scare that I will receive two of it as my other friend may buy it for me. So it is better that not to use this idea, and if nobody buy it for me I can buy it myself too.

So that all for the anlysis of these ideas. Hope that I will come out with the conclusion soon.

Racial Harmony Day

This morning my school celebrated Racial Harmony Day. I personally felt that it was fairly good, as being in the graduating classes, we did not celebrate much. We only participated in the making of two Rangolis and a fun "Additional Mathematics" lesson.

I did not participate much in the making of the two Rangolis, which was only 60cm by 60cm each. This was beacause it only allowed around ten people to help in the process of making them at each time. However, this did not make me feel bad about it as I had helped in dying the rice with various colour. The two Rangolis were great as it dispicted two beautiful flowers.

During school time I was quite emo as I felt weary. My mind was unable to keep awake, it felt empty and made me unable to think well. This may be dued to not having enough sleep and sleeping late last night. I used to sleep around 10pm most of the time so I was not use to sleeping late. This may be one of the reasons that led to me felt weary. Hope that my friends will not mind about it.

After today, I really need to strike hard for the up coming "O" Level Examination. Hope that I will have the determination and endurance.

Changes are in need! Change! Change! Change!

This evening, my friends and I went to Causeway Point cinema complex to watch Harry Potter and the order of Phoenix.

After watching the movie, I personally think that the plot is not good, as there is no continuous flowing of the story line and it is very different from the original story. But I did enjoyed the joke and the graphic.

Next, some of my friends and decided to have their dinners at home while others went to the food court centre on the fifth floor to have our dinners. I did considered going home to have but dinner but in the end I changed my mind.

While having dinner, I kept on joking and I over did some of them, which ended up having quite a tend atmosphere. Think it was because of my tactless jokes. I did not think much before I speak.

After I boarded bus 178, I sent messages to my friends and appologied to them. They said they were fine and they don't really mind about the jokes.

Really thanks them for not angry with me. But I knows this must not carry on, I need to change and be more tactful. Hope I can change it.

School Sport Day!

Today morning was my last Sport Day in WRS, which was held in Woodlands Stadium. I met up with my friends at Civi bus stop at 5.45am. We intended to have breakfast at Civi Mac, but it only open at 7.00am. We then ended up eating food bought from Seven-Eleven. After which I cycled to stadium, while the others walked there.

When reached the stadium, I went to look around and soon settled down. The races started soon. I was kind of crazy, kept on cheering and screaming through the whole day. My other classmates did also participated in the cheering and screaming. They all rock! This was the best Sport Day I ever had. Thanks to all my teachers and my classmates' support and participation.

But I also realised that today I was too crazy that I did't think much about the others feeling. I had screamed until some of my friends thought I was crazy. I also felt bad that I can't do much for my classmates, who felt sick after running. I just hope that they will rest well and recover soon.

Don't live in the Past

I would like to officially annouce that Si Kai and I had broke up since January 23, 2007.

This is my 1st time officially annouce, although some of my friends had knew about it long ago. It been around five and a half months. Maybe some of my friends did get this inform from others and hope to clerify with me but just lack of some courage. So now let me tell you personally that we had broke up.

This five and a month period is tough to go through, but I still made it in the end and I had grown mentally. Most of us will be passing through this stage. I hope when it approach anyone of us, we will face it bravely and grown in the process. Never try to forget about the past, but keep it as a part of your memories and move on. If I can do it, so will you.

'O' Level Chinese Oral Examination

Today afternoon I had my 'O' Level Chinese Oral Examination. I started to felt nervous the moment I woke up in the morning. I tried to be clam by singing song but it did'd work. So i had my heart kept on pumping loudly to school. After having much chat and laughters with friends, I finally clammed down.
In the afternoon around 2pm, those who taking oral examination today entered the hall. Then my heart started to pump loudly and fast. But after taking a few deep breaths, I was once again clammed down. The passage was easy, but the conversion I did't hit the points. The teacher said a long chime term for 'shopping mall', which confused me. I thought that she was saying supermarket. This led to me answering out of point.
After reaching home, my anger and sadness soon wear off. I hoped that I will do well for the 'O' Level Chinese Listening and had done well for the other components so as to pull back my marks.
This had taught me that when facing difficulties, we must stay clam so that we can think properly. Nervous will not lead me to success, it will only lead me to failures. Hope that i can overcome my nervous before the next coming 'O' Level paper.

Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

This is a great non-fiction book written by Mitch Albom about his professor. His professor, Morrie, suffered from ALS, which cause his body to slowly became unable to move, and die. He learned about his long lost contract professor through the interview screened on the TV. Soon he and his professor reunioned and they started their 14 life lessons started on every Tuesdays.

1st Tuesday: About the World
-- The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it
come in."
-- Love is the only rational act.

2nd Tuesday: About Feeling Sorry for Yourself
-- I thought about all the people I knew who spent many of their weking hours feeling sorry for themselves. How useful it would be to put a daily limit on self-pity. Just a few tearful minutes, then on with the day.

3rd Tuesday: About Regrets
-- The culture doesn't encourage you to think about such things until you're about to die. We're so wrapped up with egotistical things, career, family, having enough money, meetinf the mortgage, getting a new car, fixing the radiator when it breaks--we're involved in trillions of little acts just to keep going. So we don't get into the habit of standing back and looking at our lives and saying, Is this all? Is this all I want? Is something missing?
-- You need someone to probe you in that direction. It won't just happen automatically.
-- We all need teachers in our lives.

4th Tuesday: About Death
-- To know you're going to die, and to be prepared for it at any time. That's better. That way you can actually be more involved in your live while you're living.
-- Do what the Buddhists do. Every day, have a little bird on your shoulder that asks, 'Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all I need to do? Am I being the person I want to be?'
-- Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.

5th Tuesday: About Family
-- The fact is, there is no foundation, no ssecure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn't the family... ... If you don't have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don't have much at all. Love is so supremely important. As our great poet Auden said, 'Love each other or perish'

6th Tuesday: About Emotions
-- Don't cling to things, because everything is impermanent.
-- But detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That's how you are able to leave it.
-- But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely... ... And only then can you say, "All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.

7th Tuesday: About the Fear of Aging
-- ... ... embrace aging.
-- As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as gnorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it.
-- If you're always battling against getting older, you're always aoing to be unhappy because it will happen anyhow.

8th Tuesday: About Money
--Money is not a substitute for tenderness, and power is not a substitute for tenderness. I can tell you, as I'm sitting here dying, when you most need it, neither money nor power will give you the feelinf you're looking for, no matter how much of them you have.
-- Devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.
-- ... if you're trying to show off for other people at the top, forget it. They will look down at you anyhow. And if you're trying to show off for people at the bottom, forget it. They will only envy you. Status will get you nowhere. Only an open heart will allow you to float equally between everyone.
-- Each night, when I go to sleep, I die. And the next morning, when I wake up, I reborn. [Mahatma Gandhi]

9th Tuesday: About how Love goes on
-- ... ... everyone is in such a hurry. People haven't found meaning in their lives, so they're running all the time looking for it. They think the next car, the next house, the next job. Then they find those things are empty, too, and they keep running.
-- I would rather put my energies into people.

10th Tuesday: About Marriage
-- In this culture , it's so important to find a loving relationship with someone beacause so much of culture does not give you that. But the poor kids today, wither they're too selfish to take part in a real loving relationship, or they rush into marriage and then six months later, they get divorced. They don't know what they want in a partner. They don't know who they are themselves--so how can they know who they're marrying?
-- ... ... there are a few rules I know to be true about love and marriage: If you don't respect the other person, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you don't know how to compromise, you gonna have a lot of trouble. If you can't talk openly about what goes on between you, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. And if you don't have a common set of values in life, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. Your values in life must be alike.

11th Tuesday: About Our Culture
-- The little things, I can obey. But the big thins-- how we think , what we value--those you must choose yourself. You can't let anyone--or any society--determine those for you.
-- Look, no matter where you live, the biggest defect we human beings have is short sightedness. We don't see what we could be. We should be looking at our potential, stretching ourselves into everything we can becom. But if you're surrounded by people who say 'I want mine now,' you end up with a few people with everything and a military to keep the poor ones from rising up and stealing it.
-- In the beginning of life, when we are infants, we need others to survive, right? And at the end of life, when you get like me, you need others to survive, right? ... ... But here's the secret: in between, we need others as well.

12th Tuesday: About Forgiveness
-- Make peace. You need to make peace with yourself and everyone around you.
-- Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Don't wait, ... ...
-- The tension of the opposites... ... Things pulling in different directions.

13th Tuesday: About the Perfect Day
-- Everything gets born, dies.
-- As long as we love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on--in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you here.
-- Death ends a life, not a relationship.

14th Tuesday: We say Good-Bye

Thanks Hu Wei!

Yesterday evening, I skipped my piano lesson, however my piano teacher told me that I passed my Grade 8 Theory Examination. For that an hour duration, I thought of finding some friends to talk to and play with, hence I went to Marsiling, hoping to find my friends there playing badminton. But when I reached there, there wasn't a single soul. Next I called Henry, but could not reach him. After which I called Jin Xiang, and I found out that they were at Admiralty playing badminton, so I dropped the idea of joining them to play badminton. I then called Hu Wei and found out that he and Henry are having St. John camp. However, he agreed to book out and meet me outside school. After about half an hour, we met up and went for a walk. Alhought he was only given an hour, but it was a great walk and we had a great chat. Soon I was brighten up all thanks to him. I also promised myslef that next time when he is down or he need somebody to accompany him, I will be there. =)