I was overjoyed after I received my 'O' level result. The result was unexpectedly good, comparing to the results I normally flair in school. I then submited my JAE form. I put Innova Junior College as my first choice and Material Science of Republic Polytechic as my second choice. Innova had became my first choice as it is nearer to my house and I am unsure of what I really want to do in my furture. My family supports me to go JC and try for one year. If I fail to adapt to JC environment, then I shall appeal to Republic Polytechnic Material Science. This is my current plan. However, I still how that I'll be able to adapt to JC life so that I won't waste my time.

Last night one of my teachers messaged me at 11.14pm and I had fallen asleep by then. I only saw this message this morning, and it went like this:

Teacher: Excited ?
Me: Yes! I scare that i'll fail my english! You be back to give us our result right?
Teacher: Yup. U will be fine
Me: Okay. Thanks:)

So does it mean that I will pass my English or he just comforting me? I had been worrying about my English result. English is the most important subject and yet it is the worse subject for me. In my memory, I had never passed my English in Secondary Four. However I still hope that I will pass my English 'O' level this time. I do not wish to retake my English as it is scary for me! Will be taking my 'O' level result this afternoon, hope that my teacher really mean what he say, that is my English result is really fine (in my word that is minimum pass).

Long time didt blog. Too much things had taken place, yet not sure how to put into words. Will try my best.

Things that I remember:
1. 2008, new year, new aim, new things ahead. Yet many things need to be done, need to get over with, need to hope for, wish for.

2. I kind of regretted for not going JC PAE. Initially, I planned to apply for pioneer JC as it was my very first aim for my PAE since secondary three. It wasn't because of any special reason, purely because I like the orientation at pioneer JC. Feeling foolish when I was in the position of filling in the PAE form, I decided to think things over more carefully. I started to flip through the book gaven by teacher, which contained various JCs information. Then I came across Yishun JC. This time round was because of the subjects that Yishun JC offers. However, over much thoughts, I discarded of going there, not just Yishun JC, but the JC PAE. Not going Yishun JC because of distance, travel time, GP were only parts of it, however my decision was not change mainly due to these. The change in my decision was due mainly to my fear, the fear of friendless, new environment, new people, new relationships that are waiting ahead of me to be establish by my own hands. For me to establish relationships with people seem to be easy to some of my friends, and yet, it is not to me. Some friends may think that I'm quite socialable, yet, I'm not, to me at least. I may seem close to some people in the outside, but this is not ture in the inside. It took me nearly 10 years for one of my friends to become one of my close friends, it was only until recently. This make me doubtful of whether I will be having friends during my PAE days, so I abandoned the thought of going. However, if I really want to further my studies, it seem like Yishun JC will be the best choice for me. If my 'O' level result allowed, think Yishun JC will still be my first choice. At least there is where I can pursue my studies, there is where it offers the subjects that I wish to take, as it has flexi-combimnation of subjects. For now, I just hope that I can at least pass my English and get a L1R5 lower then 20 points.

3. Recently, I have a friend who just broke up from a relationship with his girlfriend. A girl that he like, love since he was primary 4, if I did't remember wrongly. The girl possess great characters. They remained as best friends until end of last year, the guy finally made it. It was really great then! The guy had finally find his happiness, however his happiness did't last long. I was informed by him through msn, unprepared. No sure how to comfort him, being total useless. I have never see him in msn since then. So just hope that he will get well soon.

4. I have never thought that leaving WRS was so difficult. Started to miss WRS right at the first day of schooling day. Spent my 4 years there, and had never thought that WRS is my home too, until recently. The things that I missed most are the teacher, the schooling days and most of all the people that I had met. Not sure hope many people I met there will be my friends forever. Alots of uncertainties overwhelm me. Not sure how to find out the answers, don't dare to find out the answer. Went back to school 3 times, and will be going back tomorrow. Hope that it will be a happy day!

5. Giving free tutions these days. Teaching one of my primary school friends music theory and piano. Teaching her is more like a test to myself, to know if I can teach. From her, I found out that teaching basic music theory is fine for me, however it seem to be a totally different situation for piano. Teaching piano really needs a lots of patience and skills, and these two seem to be the things that I am lacking of. Think I really need to bush up on these two areas! So think for the time being, will only focus on this one and only piano pupil. Try to find ways to improve on my teaching skills.

6. Now adays, my computer shows signs of breaking down. Firstly, the speakers spoiled followed by the CPU fan and now unable to process many online games, lack, hang, auto shut down...

7. There's one day my friend told me he found his cup of tea but he can't afford it.

8. Piano. Will it be just part of my life or will it the the main thing in my life? Many people never thought that I can play piano until I did it infront of them. Maybe this is the conclusion they drew from my outwards apperance, my actions... There was a time that I thought of making piano as the main thing in my life, however it seem rediculous to many people. Maybe is because of the narrow path. Maybe is because only the best of the best can become performancer. Maybe ... Most importantly, I seem to be having lots of fingering technics problems, not sure if I am even fix to play piano. These had shaken my thought of making piano as the main thing in my life. Unsure of my dream and I am still finding my direction.

9. Waiting for the arrival of 23 January 2008.

10. Make 2008 a meaningful year!

Though this year did't seem to start smoothly for me, but will try to overcome.